THE HANGiNG SKiES

I'm beginning to wonder if some people in my life is bringing me total black luck. Maybe it works better in evil places where black might be the order of the day, challenging the purity of white that represents hope.

I digress.

Another day when the day has yet to break when mom said something that isn't too bright - sleeping in an air controlled room after a shower... might just not wake up in the morning after all. I mean, I know she meant well, but heck, no need to put it so bluntly... it makes the day start in a stutter, making me wonder if such words could possibly turn into curses that eventually do come true.

There are mornings when I wouldn't wake on time, and she would burst through the door, screaming nicknames like "bloody ass" or "useless bum", or anything to that effect. I used to just ignore them, but some time back, I hit back, citing that all these might just have become realities. And although I value my independence, I've pretty much stayed with the folks for as long as I can remember, just to keep an eye on them. How I wish someone else can seriously take over without incidents so that I can at least get my own space for a while. But well, judging from the proximity the rest of them are having, looks like I gotta stick around for a pretty long while more. Pity.

So this morning, it made no difference that she blurted words in brief moments that she wouldn't normally take too seriously. Well, to me now, they make sense, and just so easily bruised me.

Don't get me wrong, I ain't gonna bear a grudge because she might have phrased them better akin to great customer service. But hey, no harm being nice to your own kid more outwardly, and perhaps, more outrightly? She's a great mom, no doubts about that.

I got a new webcam today. I have no need for it really, just hate the built in cam on the laptop that has so much trouble getting me in frame. While shopping around for ink cartridges, I thought heck, might as well just buy one since I do video chat with friends sometimes. Took me a good hour just to get it set up due to the conflicting peripherals - 2 cams on a computer can't quite easily be discerned. But well, it's all up and running now... just wondering who to call to try it out.

Oh I so wish today's gonna be an easy, fun day.