I thought everything was cool - that things have cooled off without too much repercussions. But I was wrong.
Darn I'm always wrong. I don't understand why people can't ever leave me alone. Do they hate me that much or are they just jealous of me in some ways? I don't know. It hurts so damn bad to the point I don't even know what to feel anymore.
Who really loves me?
I know. Nobody.
Everyone's got an agenda. The more I hear things, the more I imagine things, the more I hate the world. The whole believe just shrank. Hope is bullshit and praying doesn't work no more, not at least for myself.
Redemption is broken. Neutrality doesn't exist no more.
Oh gosh. I can't even describe the hurt right now. It's really taking a grind on me, drilling deeper every minute I sit here.
I'm just gonna indulge in a hot shower. Maybe drown myself somehow in the process.
