ViLE OF VEX

I've honestly lost the will-power to talk about my current issues. I can't seem to say what I feel anymore about them at the back of my head. Mom has decided to pull her favorite stunt of not talking to me, for whatever reasons she feels right about.

It's really tearing me down.

First, she was against throwing things out as proposed by bro over the renovations. And when bro decided to talk to her, she didn't even look at him, just simply angry. So I stepped in and told her to at least talk it out. That must have been her trigger point. And since Monday, that was it. She refused to talk to me.

For the first time in 30 years, I actually feel like moving out. And maybe I should after all.

MOODLESS

I'm seriously frustrated and stressed out with some family members. That pressure to get things moving in tandem with mounting clients with-holding payment for work done, as well as the show, just gets incredibly big by the day. Maybe I'm putting myself through this unnecessarily, but having to deal with issues I did not create is wearing me out. And fast.

Well, I'm praying hard to get by and stay as positive as I can. Till things look up, even for a day, that be a really huge blessing.

For those affected tremendously by the plummeting stock market, you have little of my sympathy, but I certainly wish you well.

FABRiCATiON

That's that. I'm so close to crying right now that it isn't useful to even think about it anymore. I think... I've been patient enough. I also think, I've been good. Maybe, just maybe, doing all these show things are honestly not worthwhile.

So it seems I'm not really prepared. Truth is, I can't prepare much when the people involved aren't pitching in enough to help me out here.

And I go around barking at people for things, when people seriously aren't really interested. I can so tell... It's hard when you have to take instructions I know. But if there isn't contributions, then somebody's gotta do something. That ass has got to be me.

I'm sick of being an ass. Really. Why should I bear that brunt for so many others, when I can use all that time, effort, and money to go holiday, rejuvenate, and live life? Maybe I was right... people are just simply sluts for their wants. I included.

Well, I can't really blame anyone except myself for starting this.

MY APOLOGiES

I'm so sorry blog... I've really slowed down on the posts here... I promise to pick up the pace yeah!